This morning my heart has really been fighting to stay positive. For some reason the past little while I’ve been feeling down and out, and honestly not very happy or joyful at all. I know we all come across times like this, but for some reason I’ve been having a difficult time shaking a sense of a heaviness and loneliness that’s been weighing my heart down. I’ve been talking through it every day with Jesus, and to be honest, I continually feel this heaviness. I’m not blaming Jesus for any of these feelings, but I am learning through the process that His love is so constant, and that He never gives up on me…and it’s truly not the end of the world for me to experience this.
I decided to take a trip to my favorite restaurant, Chick-fil-a this morning after dropping Allie off at preschool so I could get my favorite drink. After all, if Chick-fil-a doesn’t brighten your day, then what can, right? So I order my large half and half tea. Too much sugar if I didn’t make it half and half, you know? Anyway, I was in line, waiting my turn at the window and when I pull up the guy at the drive-thru had a big grin on his face when he handed me my drink and said, “The person ahead of you paid for your drink, so here you go!” I was definitely surprised. I’ve always heard of this happening before to others, but it’s never happened to me. Such a small, yet thoughtful, act of kindness, right when I needed it most.
When I pulled off, I began to cry…a lot. God reminded me right then and there of a few powerful truths. First of all, He reminded me that He hasn’t forgotten me. In the midst of everything else going on, all the shuffling of the kids to and from school and activities, cleaning house, doing laundry, and the poor attempts at making a healthy dinner, He sees me, knows everything about my heart, and has NOT forgotten me. He loves me right where I am, right in the midst of how I’m doing, and the way I’m acting, and isn’t ashamed of me because I’m not doing more, working harder, or making the difference in the world that I think I should be making. I am enough right where I am, and YOU are enough right where YOU are.
Another truth God reminded me of is that one little act of kindness and generosity can change someone’s life forever. FOREVER! My life was changed because someone I didn’t know decided to buy my drink. Not only that, when someone is blessed, they in turn, become a blessing to someone else and it can become a chain effect. One SIMPLE and small act of the kindness of God.
Do you get it? I think I’m finally starting to. I don’t have to wait for a “big break” to make a difference. I don’t have to be up on a stage singing or speaking to hundreds or thousands of people, or writing a blog or book that gets viewed by millions, or even hold a prominent position at a job somewhere where I’m moving up the ladder. I can make a difference for Jesus every place I go, right where I am. I don’t have to be living out my perfect dream to live God’s purpose for me…and that’s to love Him with my whole being and to love others. This is God’s will for ALL of our lives!
I guess the question is, is it enough? Is it enough for you to love God right where you are with all of your heart, soul, and strength? Or are you and I waiting for something better? Something bigger so we REALLY can make a difference? How can we be a blessing to others we come in contact with every day? How can we show Christ’s love without expecting or needing something in return?
God is so amazing. He loves you and me so fully, so passionately, and simply has a heart for your heart. He’s not in it for Himself or to get anything out of it. He loves you for YOU. He desires you…not what you can do for Him, but simply you. He loves me so much and reminded of that clearly today by the simple act of having someone else buy my Chick-fil-a tea.
Let’s ask God one simple question…Lord, where and how can I show your love today to those around me? Let’s take this opportunity to be the hands and feet of Christ. Right where we are.